My Most Profound Mystical Moment
During a recent podcast interview I was asked about my personal experiences that are out of the ordinary, mystical, inexplicable.
Early on in my life I was having mystical experiences – but at the time I didn’t think much of it.
One of the most profound ones that is burned in my memory is from when I was about 18 years old.
I was going across town to pick up some of my older guy mates who were oddly at a bar in Remuera. Being skater/snowboard guys this wasn’t their usual territory, nor mine and yet that is where I found myself that evening – en route on a night out to a Lightspeed dance event.
There were 2 men sitting at the end of the bar who immediately drew my attention. They were a bit older, maybe in their thirties and there was something about them that was niggling at me. I got a soda as I was the sober driver and had a bump of speed in the bathroom before venturing back out to catch up with my mates. I was so drawn to talk to this one man that despite having a lighter in my pocket for a cigarette, I went up, ciggie packet in hand and asked him for a lighter.
“I’ve been waiting for you to come and talk to me” he said.
I was far from taken aback. I had a deep knowing within me. That this was exactly where I needed to be. That this wasn’t really a stranger. And I felt a level of absolute trust pervade my being.
“Yes,” I said.
“I know who you are,” he said.
“Do you know why you are here?”
“No,” I replied.
“I have some messages for you,” he continued.
I said OK and stood beside him.
“You have great wisdom to share. You are here with a purpose. A big purpose. You are here to facilitate great change on the planet.”
He mentioned something about consciousness and the
great shift. All of this information tumbled out of him about me as I sat there in awe. He knew things about me that no-one else did.
My memories are a blur of words and flashes of receiving energy adjustments on my back and head. I was describing the energetics I was feeling to him as we went. All the while he was explaining further and making me aware of things far bigger than myself, as Joanna the teenager. This was big. It meant something. It was my why from a soul level that I wasn’t even conscious of yet. And yet it all felt so familiar. I felt innate truth. And it felt exciting, my whole body was vibrating with this truth. It was like all my cells suddenly were also vibrating with this truth.
This makes all the sense in the world now, because I
know that cells vibrate and resonate with the power of truth. They get excited when we step into truth. And this is how you can recognise your truth.
My mates kept yelling across the bar at me to hurry up and that we needed to leave. I told them to wait and that I was coming. The man kept talking and doing what he was doing as he did some final adjustments on me.
I said “Am I ever going to see you again?” He replied
Not if you got what you needed. Then you will never see me again”
I looked at him, our eyes locking in deep recognition of divine service. I embraced him in a giant hug, thanking him profusely. My mates coming over to pull me away, as we left to go to the gig.
I vividly recall driving to the gig in Ellerslie events centre (i think) feeling so elated it went way beyond the pathetic bump of speed I had earlier. I was almost out of my body high I felt so light.
And I remember dancing and dancing and dancing in this state of ecstatic joy for hours and hours on end. No drugs required. I felt a deep knowing of coming home. Coming home to myself in my divinity. Of meeting what I always knew was within me, yet I had needed the reflection from that man to shine a light and show me so I could experience it for myself.
Interestingly I soon forgot about that experience. It was almost erased from my memory as “more important” things took its place. I got conditioned in the normal version of reality that didn’t utilise the importance of this profound guidance. I got lost in rebellious exploration of my own boundaries, people pleasing, or following the status quo, my parents and the crowd; of being in the head not heart, of doubting myself and my path forward. Because it wasn’t convenient. it was uncomfortable. It didn’t make sense and was full of unknown quantities.
Interestingly – as I sat down to write about this and got to the part of interacting with this man, a huge energy came into my field from the left hand side and nudged me. It was another opportunity to connect, integrate and ask questions in this energy, which I did as I moved through this. I still feel the energy now as I finish this article, present with me, infusing me with some kind of expanded remembrance from this initial activation. So now I sign off to take some quiet moments, and be with it further, in the totality of all that it is.